Monday, September 14, 2009

Madonna's Michael Jackson tribute VMA 2009



I loved this speech so much, I wanted everyone to read it again instead of just watching and listening to it. So I transcribed it.Ü

Michael Jackson was born in August 1958, so was I, Michael Jackson grew up in the suburbs of the Midwest - so did I, Michael Jackson had 8 brothers and sisters - so do I, when Michael Jackson was 6 he became a superstar and was perhaps the worlds most beloved child, when I was 6 my mother died, I think he had the shorter end of the stick. I never had a mother, but he never had a childhood - and when you never get to have something you become obsessed by it. I spent my childhood searching for my mother figures. Sometimes I was successful, but how do you recreate your childhood when you’re under the magnifying glass of the world for your entire life? There is no question that Michael Jackson was one of the greatest talents the world has ever known (Claps). That, when he sang a song at a ripefulled age of 8, he could make you feel like an experienced adult was squeezing your heart with his words, that the way he moved had the elegance of Fred Astaire and packed the punch of Muhammad Ali, that his music had an extra layer of inexplicable magic that didn’t just make you wanna dance – but actually made you believe that you could FLY, dare to dream, be ANYTHING that you wanted to be, because THAT is what heroes do. And Michael Jackson was a HERO (Claps).

He performed in soccer stadiums around the world, he sold hundreds of millions of records, he dined with prime ministers and presidents – girls fell in love with, boys fell in love him - everyone wanted to dance like him. He seemed other worldly - but he was also a human being. Like most performers he was shy and plagued with insecurities.

I can't say we were great friends, but in 1991 I decided I wanted to get to know him better. I asked him out to dinner: I said, 'My treat, I'll drive, just you and me.' He agreed and showed up to my house without any bodyguards. We drove to the restaurant in my car. It was dark out, but he was still wearing sunglasses. I said, 'Michael, I feel like I'm talking to a limousine, do you think you could take off those glasses so I could see your eyes?' He paused for a moment, then he tossed the glasses out the window, looked at me with a wink and a smile and said, 'Can you see me now, is that better?' In that moment, I can see both his vulnerability and his charm, the rest of the dinner I was hell-bent on getting him to eat French fries, drink wine, have desert and say bad words, things he never seem to allow himself to do. Later we went back to my house to watch a movie and we sat on the couch like 2 kids, and somewhere in the middle of the film his hands snuck over and held mine, it felt like he was looking for a friend more than a romance and I was happy to oblige him and in that moment he didn’t feel like a superstar - he felt like a human being. We went out a few more times together and then for one reason or another we fell out of touch.

Then the witch-hunt began.

And it seemed like one negative story after the other was coming out about Michael. I felt his pain. I know what it’s like to walk down the street and feel like the whole world has turned against you. I know what it’s like to feel helpless and unable to defend yourself because the roar of the lynch mob is SO loud that you are convinced that your voice can never be heard BUT I had a childhood and I was allowed to make mistakes and find my own way in the world without the glare of the spotlight.

When I first heard that Michael had died, I was in London days away from the opening of my tour. Michael was gonna perform in the same venue as me week later. All I could think about in that moment was – I had abandoned him, that WE HAD ABANDONED HIM. That we had allowed this magnificent creature that once set the world on fire to somehow slip through the cracks. While he was trying to build a family and rebuild his career we were all busy passing judgment. Most of us had turned our backs on him.

In a desperate attempt to hold on to his memory. I went on the internet to watch old clips of him dancing and singing on TV and on stage and I thought ‘My God, he was so unique, so original, so rare and there will NEVER be anyone like him again. HE WAS A KING. (Claps) – But he was also a human being, and alas we are all human beings and sometimes we have to lose things before we can truly appreciate them.

I want to end this in a positive note and say that my sons – age 9 and 4 are obsessed with Michael Jackson, there a whole lot of crotch grabbing and moonwalking going on in my house and it seems like a whole new generation of kids has discovered his genius and are bringing him to life again. I hope that wherever Michael is right now - he is smiling about this. (Claps)

Yes, Michael Jackson was a human being, but damnit he was a king. Long live the King!!! (APPLAUSE)

transcribed by: Lea Lomagos

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Nobody does it better

I've always loved this song... But now it has an ALL NEW meaning...

From Carly Wilson.

Nobody does it better
Makes me feel sad for the rest
Nobody does it half as good as you
Baby, you're the best

I wasn't looking but somehow you found me
It tried to hide from your love light
But like Heaven above me
The spy who loved me
Is keeping all my secrets safe tonight

And nobody does it better
Though sometimes I wish someone could
Nobody does it quite the way you do
Why'd you have to be so good?

The way that you hold me
Whenever you hold me
There's some kind of magic inside you
That keeps me from running
But just keep it coming
How'd you learn to do the things you do?

And nobody does it better
Makes me feel sad for the rest
Nobody does it half as good as you
Baby, baby, darlin', you're the best

Baby, you're the best
Darlin', you're the best
Baby, you're the best
Baby, you're the best
Baby, you're the best
Baby, you're the best

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Anawangin, Zambales

My boyfriend and I went to Anawangin last May to celebrate our 4th anniversary. It's August and I can't think of better topic to write about. If you're planning to visit, go ahead, give it a try, it's pretty and it's super quiet. You'll enjoy it if you're looking a serene place and a taste of back to basic lifestyle. The people are nice and they are very helpfull. Here's how you go to Anawangin!

Take a bus going to SAN ANTONIO, ZAMBALES (PHP270.00 Victory Liner) you want to leave early because the trip will be as long as 6 hours. We left at 11PM.

You will get off the bus when you reach the San Antonio Police Station. There will be Tricycles waiting there (PHP20 per head)

Tell the manong driver that you need to go to Pundaquit. They pretty much know where you wanna go and they will be the ones to offer you boat rides going to the islands of Anawangin, Capones and Camara.

1 Island trip - PHP 500.00
3 Island-trip - PHP 1500.00

We arrived in Pundaquit at around 4AM, we stayed at the boatman's house till it's time for us to tour the islands (5AM). On the 1st day we stayed at Anawangin (after the tour of the other 2 isles). It's a little spooky during night time, actually 4pm becomes nighttime in that place. It's so dark and eery. We set up our tent, since there is no, and I mean zero, resort or cottage in the area.

Like what I've said, the place is pretty - enchanting even, but I did not enjoy it as much as I enjoyed Galera or Batangas. Maybe it's the "city girl" in me but the simpleness of place made it too inconvenient.

Problem #1. It's very hot specially during the afternoon! You would think that it'll be breezy with all the trees around - but no! It's sooo humid and there is no electricity so that translates to no cold water to drink, NO COLD ANYTHING. You can take a dip on the beach though. (I can't freakin' swim and there are sudden deep ends in the beach, so I did not risk my limited swimming skills)

Problem #2. Bathroom. There are toilets in each side of the island, but if you're even a little sensitive to smell, you'd hate it like I did. It's stinks. There was no floating shit or anything but it smells like urine and I hate it. I mean, thanks to the caretakers because I know they are doing all that they can to maintain the place and they are good people! God bless them, but city people are starting to swamp there and it's causing the place to smell like week old piss!

Problem #3. I can't sleep because although we have tent and earthpad, I can still feel the sand, I'm worried that I'll kill the little crabs in the sand (which thrive in the place! There are these tiny white crabs that scared the hell outta me at first but later on I just got worried I'll step on them and kill them)

Those are the 3 big problems that I encountered in the place. Again! I want to emphasize the beauty and the peacefulness of Anawangin but it's just not for me. It's lovely and it should stay that way. I'm not asking for resorts or anything because it'll just bring more people to it and I think it's best to keep the place as it is. An inhabited island.

But, still if you're planning to go prepare about PHP 4,000.00 (per head for 2 nights, 1 night in Anawanging Island, if you'll stay at the resort for both nights prepare 5-6k) for fare and budget while in Anawangin, bring the following:
1. your own tent
2. flashlight
3. batteries
4. drinking water
5. cooking stuff or canned goods.
6. camera...

here are some pictures...

Anawangin...


Capones...


us eating...Ü


There are plenty of resorts in Pundaquit if you don't feel like staying in Anawangin. We stayed in Megan's but the resort beside it has a pool and it's much prettier all at the same price (wink) just walk around first before deciding to stay or ask the boatman for a good place to stay. So there. Hope this helps. Hehehe.

Ciao.

Monday, June 29, 2009

oh man...


I can't get out of this.

Can I be any sadder over the passing of someone I'm not related to?

I feel like someone whom I loved dearly for 15 long years left me and it's killing me. It's like being punched directly in the heart. It gives me the lumpy feeling in my throat.

Yes, people I'm still talking about M.J.

I know it's funny that I'm still writing about this, but I honestly can't think of a better way to release my hurt and anger and loneliness. I never met this man. I was never near him and I've lost any chance of it.

I feel sorry that for a while I had doubts about him. I laughed at him like everybody does. It's painful.

There'll never be another him, not even close to him. God has blessed us an amazing, extraordinary performer and words fail me to describe his greatness.

(Shit! I can't believe I'm crying again)

I think what saddens me is that he's had everything, wealth and fame but he was never truly happy, he cannot be normal and happy like any regular folk because everybody needed something from him. Everybody wanted The King of Pop but nobody really accepted Michael Jackson as he is.

I am distraught.

I don't know what to say.

I'm just gonna think I'm blessed to have known his music.

The Greatest Performer to have walked the Planet.

Moonwalk with us in heaven!

Hats off to you!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Journey well MJ...


I am literally, crying my heart out... I was devastated when I read the breaking news today.

"Michael Jackson, King of Pop dies at 50"

My mom texted me immediatly to ask me if I was okay... I know people will think that this is weird, you won't think so if you know me... I would spend most of my teenage years watching VHS tapes of Michael Jackson concerts, interviews listened to his music. I would save my school and birthday money to buy his cassette tapes. I cried all night on '96 when I was not able to watch his HIStory concert because we cannot afford it.

I was just so sad. It was sad that he died a very lonely man...

I am so sad...

So sad.

Journey well MJ...

You'll be missed.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

end of an era...

I know myself.

As everyone should know themselves... I fall hard but once I've fallen out, I can't force myself to stay in a relationship.

For a while now (read as 1 week) I've been feeling exhausted, I'm no longer interested, I get irritated by the tiny things... And as much as I hate to admit it. It only means one thing. I'm falling out of love.

It's been 4 years and I can't just blurt out a decision. So I need to think about it. If this feeling stays for another 3 weeks. I have to let it go.

Whew... How will I say it?

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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best" -ME channeling the Icon Marilyn Monroe